1. Lolita
2. The Wives of Bath
3. The Full Spectrum
4. Tomorrow Wendy
5. Sugar Rush
6. Empress of the World
7. Keeping You a Secret
Silly, right?
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
I so hate consequences, running from you is what my best defense is.
I'm realizing just how much my secrets are beginning to hurt me.
Isn't it hilarious that I used to feel alone when I had everyone I cared about, and now that I've lost them, I've become too numb to truly miss them? *laughs a little*
So far, I have two teachers seriously worried about me... Apparently I "haven't been myself" the past few days. I've become a lot quieter. A lot more studious, I think. I haven't had the "distractions" I usually have, so its been good, I guess, for my grades.
It seems as though I've just given up the things I believe in. Its great. :) All I need now to give up on grades... then I can focus on... nothing? Idk. *shrugs*
I had a serious thought today. I think I'd like to be a librarian. Like... Not a librarian as a side job, a library sciences specialist. I'd be a good librarian. I wouldn't bitch out the kids. I like systems- especially alphabetizing. :) And I'd get to be around BOOKS. Plus, I have the glasses. I also like the idea of getting to read for a living... I know "Media Specialists" get paid for that. And why are the librarians so bitchy anyway? Its not like they actually get in trouble for the kids looking up email on the internet. *sighs* I'd hate being a teacher, cuz I care too much about other's opinions, but a librarian... *sighs happily*
Just a stupid fantasy though. My mom would hate the idea.
Isn't it hilarious that I used to feel alone when I had everyone I cared about, and now that I've lost them, I've become too numb to truly miss them? *laughs a little*
So far, I have two teachers seriously worried about me... Apparently I "haven't been myself" the past few days. I've become a lot quieter. A lot more studious, I think. I haven't had the "distractions" I usually have, so its been good, I guess, for my grades.
It seems as though I've just given up the things I believe in. Its great. :) All I need now to give up on grades... then I can focus on... nothing? Idk. *shrugs*
I had a serious thought today. I think I'd like to be a librarian. Like... Not a librarian as a side job, a library sciences specialist. I'd be a good librarian. I wouldn't bitch out the kids. I like systems- especially alphabetizing. :) And I'd get to be around BOOKS. Plus, I have the glasses. I also like the idea of getting to read for a living... I know "Media Specialists" get paid for that. And why are the librarians so bitchy anyway? Its not like they actually get in trouble for the kids looking up email on the internet. *sighs* I'd hate being a teacher, cuz I care too much about other's opinions, but a librarian... *sighs happily*
Just a stupid fantasy though. My mom would hate the idea.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
So I'm fickle and obsessive...
Its been forever since I've posted. Yes, I know. Sue me.
I kind of had to write today. Just found out that Bekah won't be online anymore. So... great.
I really just feel like crying, but you know, its not going to make it any better.
Its probably not helping that EA is playing in the background, but somehow, I always find myself attracted to EA when I'm missing Rebexika. My stupidity, I suppose. *laughs*
I suppose I'll wait til Rence or Zara returns to discuss the situation, but until then, I will melt into a puddle of soppy Bitch.
Currently playing:
"I want my innocence back..."
Is that wrong of me? My feelings can be expressed best on this subject through the use of another lyric:
"It hasn't always been this way. I remember brighter days. Before the dark ones came, stole my mind, wrapped my soul in flames."
My soul is wrapped in flames often these days. I feel as though I am bound by the rules of my engagements, the rules of my friendships, rules of my relationships.
I wish I didn't.
*sighs* Must be off. I plan to clean up this trash heap tonight.
I kind of had to write today. Just found out that Bekah won't be online anymore. So... great.
I really just feel like crying, but you know, its not going to make it any better.
Its probably not helping that EA is playing in the background, but somehow, I always find myself attracted to EA when I'm missing Rebexika. My stupidity, I suppose. *laughs*
I suppose I'll wait til Rence or Zara returns to discuss the situation, but until then, I will melt into a puddle of soppy Bitch.
Currently playing:
"I want my innocence back..."
Is that wrong of me? My feelings can be expressed best on this subject through the use of another lyric:
"It hasn't always been this way. I remember brighter days. Before the dark ones came, stole my mind, wrapped my soul in flames."
My soul is wrapped in flames often these days. I feel as though I am bound by the rules of my engagements, the rules of my friendships, rules of my relationships.
I wish I didn't.
*sighs* Must be off. I plan to clean up this trash heap tonight.
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