So I'm sitting here in class, and wondering if I'll ever really feel better again. I'm hearing people talk about things that they've learned this semester, and wondering what I've missed. I thought that these things were just common knowledge. I don't feel like I've learned anything the entire class.
I'm panicking a little, because I have about a million things to do, and I can't even imagine how to get it all done. I'm completely wiped out, and I haven't even done anything. I've wasted so much time in the past semester- I have like... fifteen papers to write, and I can't even fathom how to get it all done. Although, you know, I have time to blog... But I guess I'm justifying it as sanity-time, plus, you know, I'm in class. >.> Maybe there is no justification, outside of "I don't want to be dependent or attention seeking anymore." That's pretty much what the jump in blogging again has meant. I felt like I was wringing the life out of everyone around me, even though I wasn't. So, dear readers, if you're out there, if you care or notice that I'm writing again, that's why. Yes, I miss you, and yes, I want to keep writing, but the posts, for now, will be intense and lingering, thought based, feelings, stream-of-consciousness right now.
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I'm so glad you've started posting again! Blogging can be a big stress-reliever and it's always nice to just get everything out, no matter whether or not many people read it. Stay strong! :)
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